The last of a 12-page comic I drew at the end of last year, as a sort of "filler" to make up for my absence in Star Wars: The Old Republic.
Unfortunately, due to real life events, I've only just gotten around to coloring it now. The events in this comic have already taken place, and though it was never officially roleplayed, those of us involved consider the comic as canonical.
Needless to say, I've been anticipating coloring this page for a long time, because I've always wanted to try to visually interpret the mess of noise and fog and writhing that is Laz'ab's brain.
I think it's impossible for anyone to imagine what it's like to be schizophrenic without experiencing it yourself, which I haven't, and no amount of research can really prepare you. This is just my attempt to portray even a small fraction of what Laz'ab feels, caught inside his own mind. It's not disembodied voices or shadows or padded walls; it's a very organic, tangible feeling. It's ripping and tearing and cocooning and seething--it's being trapped within yourself with no way out.
For those who need some clarification, "Approach Laz'ab as a friend, and not a shadow
" refers to Caspira's current objective of 'shadowing' Laz'ab--keeping tabs on him to make sure he doesn't relapse on some nasty old habits, and might take out a whole village for giggles. Her constant presence is unnerving, and usually makes his paranoid schizophrenic symptoms worsen. This agitation is the main cause for conflict between Caspira and Azil'mort, who is genuinely concerned about Laz'ab and wants to try to stabilize him.--Sak
Azil'mort belongs to
Cipher Twelve/Caspira belongs to
Laz'ab belongs to myself
From the MMORPG Star Wars: The Old Republic
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